Last weekend, my husband and I went to see my sister and her new home in Texas...
The entire time was wonderful. We arrived late Friday night, so I only greeted my brother-in-law. Saturday morning, I came downstairs to find my sister and almost two nephew very awake and ready for the day. I re-introduced myself to my nephew and the next minute show and tell began... "outside, tree, ball, shoot, score, yeah! bitricycle, chalk, letter, flower, plant..." he'd point and say the words to everything he knew. It was so fun and cute!
The rest of the trip consisted of paddling a boat on the lake, going to IKEA (love this place... why in the world don't we have one closer!), hitting a jazz bar to hear some great live music, yummy bar-b-que, but more than anything connecting with my sister.
She has done such an amazing job creating a home of warmth, love, and peace. She also displayed characters of strength, confidence, and contentment I haven't seen in her in awhile. Being newly married, I have struggled with the idea of "only be a mother" and putting my career aside to take care of a family. But after being around my sister and her ability to have undivided attention to her family, she made "only being a mother" a compliment and lifestyle I truly desire. I've known that I have always wanted to be a mother, but I didn't get married till my late 20's and had discovered a career and working path I enjoyed and succeeded at, which became apart of my identity. Now, that I am married and the idea of children isn't that far off- motherhood scares me, because I don't know how 'to be ' a mother and if I could succeed at raising a Godly heritage. But what I saw by living life with my sister for a few days, is that the strength to be a mother is a day-by-day surrender to God and He becomes your life-giving ability to care for a family.
It is refreshing to see that being a mom is still apart of my feminine heart. In fact, my job starts Monday, and I am dreading the idea of going back to work... I just want to stay home. For now, I think God still has some work and healing to complete in my own heart about being a mother; so I will enjoy the season I am in of working and caring for my husband.
In the meantime, I have these pictures up around my home to remind me of the great time and life lesson I learned by visiting my sister.
5 comments:
Ally, I never thought in a million years I was mother material. I was terrified of babies, I couldn't even hold one before Josh was born. A stay at home mom sounded muldane. But when the time is right, you hold that baby, the mother in you comes naturally. With the right timing, you will be ready for whatever God has for you...wife, nurse, mother, sister, daughter etc.
Thanks Susan for your words of encouragement...
Hi Ally!
Thanks for the sweet post it's so great to see your heart. Thanks for coming to visit us. We loved having you guys here. I hope your first day at work is great - will be thinking and praying for you!
Love,
Rebecca
Ally,
LOVED these words: "the strength to be a mother is a day-by-day surrender to God and He becomes your life-giving ability to care for a family." So true!
My experience was similar to Susan's. I feel that, like becoming a wife, God helps you "step into" that new role.
Hello there! You're going to make a fab mommy Ally-God knows the right timing.
I'm so glad you got to go out and visit R and W. i know they really enjoyed having you and I'm sure you were a site for sore eyes.
You have a real way with journaling, I enjoy reading your posts.
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